Hello love, again

Something that I love in this life is how love can make us. Earlier, I watched the Hello, Love Again, the most must-watch movie of our generation. I guess, I resonate so much with the theme, that love is a home. It is our tahanan.

There are so much things going around in my life in my 20s that I missed many, many personal things. I did my best of work and life balance but my situation was always difficult for make it work back then. It is when I was burnt out and then went home, that love and home became my healing.

Other than family, I was so reluctant in the past if I have someone to love, like someone opposite my gender. Perhaps because of fear that I expect too much. I know this is the indirect result of watching K Dramas. We always have someone to look up to, we always have someone to be a yardstick for someone we want. Plus, my father is so loyal to my mom and they love each other very much, that the standard has been too high. Well, not the looks in particular, but treatment and of course, goal of having a nice life.

I met that someone. Then, I learned to understand. My life mentor Ma’am Maris once told me that if I want something to happen, I should tell someone so that he would need not to guess what I want. If I want something that he cannot do, I should teach him the way, and vice versa — that I should be teachable as well, and also understanding in a way, especially that I tend to really do what I want to do, usually.

People have different perspectives when it comes to loving or being loved. Perhaps just because I grow with so much love in my life that I just wanted a simple love. I just hope and pray that with someone that I will end up with, I would not be required to give so much that nothing will be left of me. Or if I have to do that, I hope I will be reciprocated with an amount that is enough for my heart to breathe and rest, as love, as they say, is a home. It is a home where we go to when we get tired, overwhelmed, and feel so unloved in the entire day in life. Then, mine should be a home too. It is one of my prayers that God will grant me with a loving home that each of us can nurture eventually.