Just Hello No. 17: Self-management

Hi, friends. I love that I was able to blog tonight. My heart is heavy for so many things. There are things in my life that I cannot figure out myself. Sometimes, I wish my life was just easy like figuring things out without worry. I am sad actually because many things the past few months are self-inflicted worries. I did not know that I can be like this. There is a hole in my path that it is so hard for me to come out of, and it drains me a lot. The hole sends me away from my passions, my values and little things that I call part of my job. It worries me that it will eat me out until nothing will be left. I am scared that despising my path will drain my heart from loving what I use to love, what I use to like.

People said that discipling one self is key to overcoming mountains and having achievements. To control of the things you overdo, to make time for each task that you have, to budget your resources according to your needs, and to put enough emotion in a moment so that you can still breathe in a while.

I think what I have gone through for many months had me surviving. I think, it’s a huge reason of being emotionally unstable and having a difficulty to self-management. This blog is also a document of things in my life that I have been trying to figure out, rather than a highlight reel where I post all of my little and big life accomplishments. One thing though, I hope I am no longer in the page where I am still finding myself. I hope.

Many years ago, I thought reaching 30 is all about being a full adult, already figured out what to do, what to think, and how to manage even as hard as heartbreak. However, it is not. I feel like, I am same to my 20s dealing life – but more mature now and indeed, I see it more challenging to manage my heart. I let things be because I know I have the power to overcome things – be it challenging my perceptions, my values and even my value, I let my heart be.

This time in my life, I think it is best to pray more for myself. I have a life and career to navigate and a lot of loved ones and even colleagues are dependable to how I do things. I hope my self gets better, my mind gets wiser, calmer, and less impulsive too. I pray of contentment in my heart, with a right balance in terms of aiming for growth.

On the other side, I happen to visit Mighty Hills in Tagoloan, Lanao del Norte, and oh my, my the view is so beautiful we know we have to make out of it and take a rest for a couple of minutes. This is I think a 10-minute ride from the highway of the Iligan-Lanao de Norte route. When you reach the Mighty Hilltop, There are several giant figures of animals, photo-taking areas, a sort like two Noah’s Ark because there are two gigantic ships. In one of the ships, built is the Lovely Cafe, a romantic, vintage-y coffeeshop. Aside from various coffee flavors, they serve coolers, shakes, and sweets, and Korean ramen too.