Page 366th of 366: Shout, Let Go, Let God

In a few hours, we will be leaving the year 2016. God knows how thankful I am for this year. I am grateful for a complete family and an indefinable happiness that I have, beyond compared to all those past years. True, it is not good to keep grudges. Instead, we should know of letting go of what hurts us and what keeps us from moving forward. In that way, we will be more blessed.

At the beginning of this year, I learned to take another step in my career and a couple of another steps outside my comfort zone. I am not yet at my best, but hopefully I could adjust soon.

God is so good for letting me meet new people and allowing me to engage in meaningful connections. Indeed, it is a year of growth and learning for me.

 

 

I also learned that no year could be so perfect. I have my fair share of pain and struggles this year. And I think, that was made me stronger. During the onset of 2016, my father was rushed to the hospital, and so was my niece. It is my first time to ride on an ambulance and I don’t want to imagine what I felt. That time, all I have were few family members and millions of prayers. I realized that even your shadow will leave you at your darkest. I tried to communicate even to my supposed friends, but all I had was a 0 message in the inbox. I further realized that having no siblings, no one could feel a kind of worry parallel to mine. I never realized that time that I could survive, having no one to turn to but myself. Thank God, I survived. And I think, that is the biggest blessing the Lord God has given me this year – my father’s better health condition and a deep sigh of relief.

My work was also a challenged for me. I am not into writing here but more of office works. Definitely, a very big career shift since it requires organization, deep analyzation, sharp memory and a long checklist (Hehe) – things that I am not good into. And all I have to do is to train myself. I am praying that someday, everything will be normalized for me.

 

I also had a failure this year. At the near end of 2016, when all I thought that this year is the best, someone just broke my heart (Okay, I’m fine now, that’s why I have the guts to share this). Indeed, you could never declare what you deserve when you start to fall for someone. Years ago, I told myself not to fall to anyone’s loop but just months ago, I did. I suffered for more than a month, asking questions and being anxious over one thing or two – about matters that I don’t want to accept. If you just encountered with my personal blog, you will know how I threw myself sermon years ago over the same matter and last month, I once again scolded myself because I never learned, and maybe God is already angry of me because of my own doing. But perhaps, everything has a purpose. There are lessons that people learned the hard way. Maybe, God partly planned a challenge, thinking we could do it – and sometimes He get shocked because even strong as we are, we didn’t made it. There and then, instead of saving us, He let us on our way because He wants us to learn the lesson we ignore to keep in mind, for it to become a matter that we should always put in our system and to never forget about it.

 

 

God is always good and we just realize that everything He plotted – those are tunnel way towards His greatest blessings. In this coming year, I pledged to become active to our church. In the recent months, I was so busy that the Lord decided to knock my doors and remind me of my responsibilities to Him. Honestly speaking, there are times that we are the root of our own failures because we forget to wait and trust for the God’s perfect timing.

 

 

Today is the 366th day of the year. I won’t declare any regrets because there are none. In my opinion, admitting all of our misundertakings is also embracing our imperfections and forgiving ourselves, preparing it to endlessly explore all corners of this life, without fear and uncertainty.

So, in this 366th page of 2016 book – be a person that the world would remember. Shout and let go! Let us all welcome 2017 with a bang and full of positivity. Feliz año nuevo mi amigas y amigos! Happy New Year Everyone! May You Be a Great Year 2017!