To the one who thinks he is a failure

Seeing oneself as a failure is the most excruciating feeling in the world. It is just so sad that the competition of this world has caused so much heartache in one’s life, and even pessimism to someone who is trying to survive the race.

Failure is just simply equal to failing the final exam in Calculus, seeing your parents’ sad reaction after learning that you want a course different from the line of profession they want you to be, not beating the deadline your boss expects you to submit your report, or simply the failure to hit the target you set for yourself.

Life can be unfair. Not just that, it can be so, so much unfair you will ask why of all people, it is you who have so much failure in life.

But dear, this world is normally mean. It is up to us on how to balance ourselves amidst the bad circumstances.

I, myself, can sometimes feel how rude life is. In that, I then begin to hate myself, to blame myself for all of the unfortunate situations I entered. But at times I always come to realize that if I hate myself, how could I run my life to success? That is why, when my tactlessness and carelessness paved the way to stumbling down, I try to be proactive. I think and I always arrive to the idea of saving myself, to do what I can do, to solve a problem or to simply patch whatever is there that could still be patched up. I prevent myself to stress out, to throw something to other people that I may regret afterwards, or to overthink and cry about a thing that is over.

Perhaps, this is what I learned from my former regional director. I am no alpha female as her, I am not brave as Super Girl, but I learned that tough things can be smoothen if we are composed and calmed to take another set of process towards overcoming a problem. I decided not to be so hard to myself. I promised not to think myself as a failure even at some point, a situation will permit me to think so.

Yes, I cannot perfect myself to be that. It may take years for me to even half of a person I am not. You see, I am someone who is so reactive and always worried but I guess that is the reason why I have pains from my past which should be supposedly not there anymore. I am just hopeful that years from now, I will not have so much pain.

Ergo, to someone who thinks he is a failure – Love, you are not. Your life is yours to live. Live it positively. Live it with proactivity. Live it with a light heart. Live it with so much love.