I always believe both in perfect timing and turning points. Perfect timing when I feel pained because I failed at a certain point of my life, then soon I see myself succeeding and realize it is indeed my perfect timing. Then, turning point when everything goes overwhelming, every single thing is too far to reach and you ponder to yourself that you already had enough and it is time to step back, assess your life and change your path for the better.
2018 is great but as the same, to me it is the most challenging year I have ever faced. I felt the depression, the feeling of losing something, processing yourself of the loss and imagining what it feels like following the road unknown to you. It is the most painful. The worse is you cannot see yourself surviving at the end. It is excruciating.
I always pray to God above that may He bless me with right mind to come up with good decisions that would lead me to something better, to something I will be thankful for at the end. Today, I always do that. No giant prayers cannot overcome. I have faith in this.
I am posting this to tell you friends who the same to me, do not feel like celebrating the ending year. You are not alone. Here I am being human than ever, compared to my curated posts in social media. However, I would also like to share that what we are going through right now and feeling the feeling we have at this very moment prove we are still surviving amidst difficulty, an enough reason to celebrate and cap the year with grateful heart.
I am ending the year with grateful heart. Grateful that I am still here, having the liberty to live the kind of life I ever wanted years back. There might be challenges and obstacles but what God blessed me is something I would never trade for anything. I am grateful for my inspiration – my parents, my support system – my family, my constants – my bestfriends, my uplifter – my officemates, and my hero who never said ‘no’ ever since – My God.
I am releasing all the things that burden me right now and just let God handle it. For that, I am happy and excited to unravel the surprises of 2019. To everyone, happy holidays and advance happy new year to all!